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This honestly the hardest video I've ever had to make in my life. I've gone back and forth on this decision for a very long time. I've spent months trying to figure out what the right thing to do is. But after a lot of thought, I have decided that I will be no longer be doing Sydman videos. Today, 31st of May, will be my final Syman video. Even saying these words out loud, it just doesn't feel real. The siren have been such a huge part of my life. For over 12, 13 years, for almost half my life, the Sidemen have been my second family.
We built something that none of us ever thought was possible. Especially back then when we were making random videos together and playing GTA. I still remember those early days with no idea that tens of millions of people were going to be watching us on the channel. And somehow this turned into an incredible journey together. We've done things I never thought were possible. We sold out arenas. We sold out stadiums. We've broken records. We've made Netflix shows. We've done a lot. And we've shared so many good moments on YouTube. And those moments will stay with me for the rest of my life. We've been there
for each other through some of the highest highs and the lowest lows of our lives. I've watched these boys grow into incredible men. I've watched these guys grow into fathers. I've watched them grow into husbands. And I'm so incredibly grateful to experience that journey alongside of them. The truth is nothing bad has happened. This decision is completely my own. Over the last few years, I felt myself being pulled in a lot of directions than ever before.
Between everything else in my life, I feel like I've been running at full speed at 100 miles an hour. I spent so long trying to be everything for everyone, trying to be everywhere. Uh trying to do it all, trying not to let anyone down. But somewhere along the way, I started losing the balance of my own life. I found it hard to make enough time for myself. I found it hard I definitely found it hard to find time for my family. I found it hard to make time for the people I love. And I realized that something has to change. The Simon deserves someone who
can give 100%. And right now I know I can't do that. It just wouldn't be fair on the boys. It wouldn't be fair to you and it wouldn't be fair to myself. Walking away from something you love is it's it's painful. Trust me, this has not been easy. But, uh, deep down, I know it's the right thing to do. Those boys help shape who I am today. And I hope in some small way that I shaped who they became, too. to Simon, the friend I've known the absolute longest. From the times we fought when we were young to all the happy great times we
had when we used to live together. It's so cool. It's so incredible to see you as a family man now. I also know how hardworking you are. I remember you told my brother that one day you were going to be bigger than me on YouTube. It might not have happened yet, but I know it still could happen because you are relentless. I feel like no one works harder than you, bro. Honestly, you are a machine and you will always have my full support. Um to Vic, you're absolutely crushing it in music right now. When I saw you at Tomorrowland, bro, I just had the biggest smile and ah I was just so happy. I was so proud of you, man.
I know how much you love DJing and I'm so excited about your future. And maybe one day we'll have that collab. Um to Ethan, I still remember one of the first times we met. You're always laughing and your laugh would instantly make me laugh. So we're just laughing at each other the whole time. Oh man. Um, bro, you're you're just so funny, man. Um, and to see you now with Faith and your little girl, it just makes me so happy.
Just makes me so happy. And I know you're going to be a fantastic dad. I mean, you already are fantastic. You're I mean, I know words. Sorry. I know you already are a fantastic dad, but oh man, Olive is just so lucky to have you as a dad. Uh to Harry, bro, never change, man. Uh, even when us as boys are having a heated argument, you would be the one that would just drop a meme and make us all laugh.
Ah, you are one of the greatest people I know and I'm so glad to have you as a friend for life. Uh to Toby, I mean, everyone calls you the nicest side man, and it's because it's true. On and off the camera, you give each and every person respect, and I just love that about you, bro. You know, I always wondered why you hardly ever drank alcohol. So when I decided to um stop drinking a few years ago, you are one of the few people that helped me throughout my sober journey. And bro, you helped me in more ways than you'll ever know. I'm so happy to see you really coming out of your shell this year. So, bro, just keep it up, man. And finally to you, Josh.
I mean, bro, I started YouTube because of you. I mean, let's be honest. Um, you have been my shoulder to cry on when things were tough, where things were low, especially uh with the whole situation with my brother. You were there, man. You were always there to help and I want to thank you for absolutely everything. You have changed my life for the better. and to the people behind the camera, the cameramen, the editors, the thumbnail designers, the um the sound designers, the people who do visual effects and so on. Everyone who helps behind the scenes, thank you so much. Thank you for all the hard work you put in.
I want you to know how much I appreciate you all. Thank you all for the memories. Thank you boys for the friendship. And uh to all of you watching, thank you whether you support us since the bedroom days or the sideman house days, the football matches. uh the road trips, the holiday videos, the Tinders, whatever. You might have even just been a fan recently. Thank you for giving the group a career beyond our wildest dreams. I hope you continue to support the boys because they truly deserve it. They're still going to do amazing things. I know they're still going to make incredible content and I will definitely be watching alongside all of you. But for now, I need to focus on myself.
I need to focus on fixing my work life balance just so I can finally focus on my health and finally make time to see my family and make time to see my partner. Thank you for everything. I'll see you guys in a bit. Take care and peace.
