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Every last bite of y'all is going to get eaten. I That's the problem. I don't want to change. That was hard. It was hard. I didn't I honestly didn't know if we were going to end on a happy note. I'm pretty sure every parent knows this feeling. Can you hear that? Yeah. Nothing. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. Here we are again. My caffeine addiction continues. I know in my last vlog I said I'm taking a break from coffee, but you know what? I'm back. That's the whole point of a break so that you can return to it. And to be fair, I feel like I figured out a
healthy dose of caffeine that doesn't give me anxiety. I can only have one shot of espresso and I can have it if I am moving around. I need to be physically exerting myself. So, this is a good time to have it. Cheers. Ah, so these are some scrambled eggs that my son did not finish. So I'm going to actually save it in a separate container. These eggs were so expensive. So I'm going to eat this for lunch later. Okay, we might as well just start replacing everything because today is June 1st, Monday. One of the things that I did in January was I scheduled each
time I needed to replace like a filter, whether it's like my water filter or my air filter and even my appointment. So, the first thing is to replace my fridge filter. Oh my god. Oh, okay. That was it. Well, well, well. That was so simple. Okay. I'm trying to find a date on when I can go to my ultrasound/mogram. I'm not pregnant. It's for my boobs. So, the end of last year, I was washing my body and, you know, getting every crevice. And so, when I was touching my one of my boobs, I noticed that there was this like density. like it just
didn't feel the same on the other side. So, that freaked me out obviously. So, got it checked and luckily they said that it looked normal, but I should keep an eye on it and I should definitely have an appointment every 6 months. So, here we are in June. It's not scary, but it's just part of the maintenance that goes on with your life. Byebye. That was 30 minutes to make an appointment. Well, at least it's done now. I get to go in July. So, thank God I did it now, or else I would have to wait even longer.
I will always appreciate a good B-roll shot, maybe because I know how challenging they can be. Uh, but yeah, I just finished filming an Instagram reel for Skin 104. I don't know why that's so hard to say. Skin 104. doesn't really roll off the tongue. Going to be real. But the products are amazing. This is their metatricxel 10% skin ampule. I use it for the under eyes, the smile lines. Like as much as I want to say like self-love and just don't change the way you are. I That's the problem. I don't want to change. I want to keep my face exactly as it is. I know that's impossible, but I don't know if you guys noticed, but I have been a lot more active on Instagram, especially for the past two months. I think I'm
ready to come back home. I'm ready to come back on the tubes because while I was on my Instagram journey, my channel has been quiet because it really took all my energy from long form to figure out short form. I still haven't figured it out, guys. I've noticed that it was having some sort of effect on my brain. For one, it made me just go on the app so much more because ideally I would create a piece of content. I would upload it just, you know, interact with the comments just for the first hour or so and just leave it. But no, every time I post on Instagram, it just makes me go on the app so much more. I am curious to know like what your guys's relationship is with short form media. Like do you
feel like it is rotting your brain? Do you find that you can actually get inspiration that you use? Cuz I feel like that's the thing with Instagram. I feel like you're under the illusion that you're being inspired and that you're going to take these ideas and apply them into your life. But if anything, I just feel like it's more like a fire hose where you're just being blasted and then you stop the faucet and then you go on with your life as opposed to another medium like YouTube. It's It's like I mean it's still blasting for sure, but it's more of like a steady drip so that you're able to kind of actually like consume and digest it. And I feel like the slower the medium goes, the more you're able to really process
things. Like we've got short form media and then we've got long form which is like YouTube and videos and then you've got like long form like books. cuz I don't know where that falls in line with. But yeah, I just my information diet is very there's a lot going on here. Nice.
on my way to boat. It's the primaries today. I just finished therapy And that was hard. It was hard. I didn't I honestly didn't know if we were going to end on a happy note with that therapy session, but I think we got there in the end. That was such an intense therapy session. Like, look how my eyes are kind of puffy. Low key, I kind of do like the way puffy eyes look after you're crying. That's like the one silver lining in this. My lips look like little raisins right now. This is the mintiest lip balm I've ever used. That mintiness persists for a long while. But yeah, this was like one of those therapy sessions where I mean, I thought I was totally fine going into it, but 15
minutes in the tears. Then I realized that I was just like venting about a bunch of things that I thought that I had come to terms with. And these days, I'm trying a different approach with venting because sometimes when you vent too much, you're only like you're almost cementing how you feel about that. And that's very I [clears throat] don't know, it's like a very negative place to be. But now that the session's over, I'm kind of glad that I vented to like a licensed professional therapist as opposed to someone that perhaps wasn't ready to hear something like that. I really can't relate to the people who just don't cry. Unless it's like something really profoundly sad that's happening, like a death or something,
but for me, I need to cry at least once or twice a month. Yeah. Sometimes more, but no more than five, unless something really shitty is happening. But I don't know. I feel like there's something really cleansing about crying. It's almost It almost feels like a purge. I could be crying alone. I can be crying in front of someone. Like, obviously, it feels a little bit better when you're crying in front of someone and there's like an audience, but I will take both. We're not crying for more than 30 minutes, you know? We're not It's not a saw, but like a good like 5 minute weeping session, it goes a long way. Honestly, I don't even know if I should dismantle today's fort. This one
is really well made. I'll just build this again later. I know I could probably buy like a set where you can build like a proper fort, but these cushions are fine. If I don't have to buy it and we could just use everyday household objects, we will. If you think hard enough, anything can be a toy. I'm going to the park to meet up with my friend and I packed us a little lunch. The hard-boiled eggs, some mixed berries, a veggie sandwich. That's the other half of the sandwich. a half a banana and some lesser than evil bowl chips. Let me show you. These are really, really good chips. I bought these because I thought that these might be like a healthier option for hot Cheetos, but it doesn't taste like a hot Cheeto at all. It like
it's definitely more tangy and it's definitely not very spicy, [snorts] but I think it's delicious in its own way. And I like the fact that there's no like artificial coloring or anything in it. Guys, you cannot beat this setting. This is my favorite park in LA, hands down. And uh just the perfect place to have a picnic. I brought some books because I'm going to film an Instagram reel doing a little book report, but I thought I would give you a blurb here. The first book I have is Strangers by Belle Burden. Now, this is a divorce memoir, so it definitely reached the right demographic, but I honestly think that anyone that is married or is about to get married should probably read this book. Bel
Burden is not your average plain Jane. She is a New York ay. Like she comes from money, generational wealth. We're talking about tens of millions of dollars. She is in a happy marriage of 20 years, three kids. It's the start of co and they are sheltering in place in their mansion. And then she gets like this call from this weird guy and he's like, "Hey, your husband's cheating on you with my wife." So she confronts her husband and is like, "Are you cheating on me?" And he's like, "Yeah, I am." and in fact I am leaving right now. So he goes on a helicopter and he leaves and that's how the divorce begins. During their marriage he convinces her to buy the Martha's Vineyard property with her trust fund. And so he kind of like
strategically timed his exit and then he left and he left with half of everything. That is insane. I think it was like $64 million. It's like money that we can't even fathom. Gwynneth Paltro is making this into a Netflix series, so I am definitely going to be watching that. Of course, we've got a self-development book. This is the six pillars of self-esteem. I thought I had low self-esteem, but after reading this book, I was like, you know what, I have medium self-esteem because a lot of these pillars I do embody, but there are a lot of traits that I really need to work on. So, self-esteem in a nutshell is kind of broken into two parts. The first is having the confidence that you will get through life's problems, life's
challenges. And the second thing is to not be like not questioning the good things that happen to you. For some people with imposter syndrome, when something good happens to them, there is like a small voice that says, "What's the catch?" You know, and I really resonated with that. But people with high self-esteem just look at good stuff and they accept it. They're like, "I am deserving of this." I found that really eye opening. I really liked his definition of self-esteem. The six pillars are as follows. Number one, living consciously. That means you're not sleepwalking through your life. It means you're paying attention to your environment, the things that are affecting you. The second pillar is
self-acceptance. It means like you don't necessarily have to like yourself and all your quirks and your anxieties and the way your mind works, you know, but it's about accepting them. It's about accepting like okay these are a part of me and when your anxiety flares up you like roll out the red carpet being like hey welcome I accept you. Three is self- responsibility. That is realizing that no one is coming to save you. It's you that has to dig yourself out of that hole. Fourth is self assertiveness. This means like you're true to you. You don't fake who you are. You're real. You're authentic. When I was reading this chapter, I just kept on thinking about like the person that gets the ox cord
and plugs the music and plays all their favorite tunes and is like completely unashamed by it. Five is living purposefully. I kind of read this as like being productive. Like if you have a goal, then you come up with like a specific plan on how you're going to reach it. Like you don't you're not just like daydreaming and hoping that things will change. Like no, like you are getting to the nitty-gritty and figuring out what exactly you need to do. And finally, we have personal integrity. This is basically saying like, are you like walking it like you're talking it? Like don't just say it, be about it. There's like a sentence completion workshop thing that you can do for like the whole month, for the whole year. So,
I am very, very excited to do that. And hopefully I go from medium self-esteem to, you know, slightly higher. She's here. Welcome. Cooking for my not toddler. Yeah. I like how that's like the default category now. Living. Do you think you have low self-esteem or do you think I have high self-esteem or medium? Moderate. Moderate. Same. Yeah,
thank you. M. Oh, it is really good. I'll get these ones. Yes. Is there anything I can get for a dollar? Like a cream. We are back from the farmers market. I would say eggs are my favorite thing to get there because these are the most high quality, most ethically and humanely raised eggs you can get. Anytime I make a sandwich, it's rustic loaf. Half of it is missing because I gave it to Ben. Fresh strawberries, rainer cherries because the red ones stain all the clothes. So, this is kind of like a mess-free way to enjoy
cherries. Also, if it's not like a crazy busy day, the farmers will literally select the perfect ripe vegetable or fruit for you. And of course, I had to get something for Cheeky. These are air dried chicken hearts, responsibly sourced. Something for everyone. I thought I might as well just like prep the rest of my vegetables. Mind you, this is not something I do all the time. In fact, it's more often times I don't do this with farmers market produce. Since it comes at such a premium price, I cannot let this go to waste. I simply cannot. So, I'm going to make sure that every last bite of y'all is going to get eaten. Also, I forgot to mention that I got this yellow curry paste at the flea
market. And I thought that I would use all this to make this dish. I had to look this up online. So, the proper way to store Thai basil, or I guess any basil, is to put it in a glass jar and have it on your countertop. Oh, it's such a good smell. M, it's a vibe. I feel like this is a sign for me to just grow my own herb garden. Like, cuz I have no business buying this much cilantro. Let's be real. Like, what am I making? I'm okay. I'm going to have to find a cilantro recipe because I like I said, I am not going to let any of this rot. So, we've got our cilantro bouquet. They also said that I need to wrap it.
[snorts] All right, let's put this all inside. food makes me so happy. Like the fact that I have like a fully stocked fridge, it like my eyes are delighted when I open the doors. I feel like the farmers market is just like a easy family tradition because it's kind of centered around food. It makes us more conscious of where it's being sourced cuz I feel like when you go to the grocery store, it just kind of like magically appears and it can feel quite distant. Tell me why every time I like do a grocery shop or like the fridge is full, I get plans for dinner. Do I go? I think I should. Uh there's going to be a new Burger Shro opening and so I want to support the local business.
Plus, I love a Wagu smash burger. It'll be nice to see everyone. Um, I think they're doing like a little party there. So, I realized that I have not done my May recap yet in my bullet journal. So, I have each month I have a specific page where I write down memories that have happened in each day. I mean, good or bad. So, that way if I ever want to look at a one line of each month, I'll know what happened. But, I haven't done that in May yet. So, I have to go grab my journal and then start like dotting it down. But overall, I had a really good May. I was a lot happier in May than I was in April. And I think it's because I just took a lot more time off. I feel like it was just like the perfect amount
of rest. Like the window was perfect because if you take too much time off, then you just you literally forget how to do everything. Um, and then if it's not enough, then you don't feel like you're recharged. But in May, I had like four or five days off and it was just delicious. It is time to make the el curry. Wow. Okay, this looks incredible. It's the moment of truth. Wow. Okay. So, it's got a bit of heat to it. This actually might be a little bit too spicy for little Lennon, but that's great. Wow. I have a feeling that my son is not going to like the
yellow curry. It's pretty adventurous for a 4 and 1/ halfyear-old, but I'm still going to serve it for him, but I'm going to have like a backup. I know you're not supposed to do that if you really want your kid to eat everything that you serve. Like I've tried that where I'm just like, "If you don't finish this dinner, you're not going to have food until the morning." And he's like, "Okay, okay." And then as I'm putting him to bed, he's like, "I'm so hungry." And I feel like I can't I like I cannot let my child go to sleep hungry. You're going to have that one. I want Yeah. I'm going to put so much Mhm.
You put a little water in your paste anymore. Mhm. Use all of it. No, I just used a like a spoonful of it. Yeah, it's like a um what's it called? Like a bullion type thing.
