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What inspires the music that I make?
Definitely like real life experiences, like having a crush.
So many songs come
out of that.
>> So I was in Nashville when I wrote it. I
was at my publisher's house.
I had been staying there for a week and it was kind
of like my excuse to see this boy
that I had a crush on and I
was like if I go
stay in Nashville and like also write, it
will be a good like I could do
both
at once.
And we just started hanging out every day and I was like obsessed.
Like
it was weird.
It was like not just a regular crush.
It was like it was weird.
Well, there I was saying I would never fall in love.
All my inhibitions walked
out the second you said, "What's up?" just
gotten out of like a relatively
long-ish relationship.
We had broken up and then I met the guy that I'm dating
now like relatively quickly after and so I
was like I don't want to be in
a
relationship.
I want to be alone.
Also out of respect for him, I was like I
want to give this like time.
So it was this weird thing where I was like I have
no control over how I feel and so
it was just this weird push and pull
of like I
said I would never do this but like it's happening.
So here we go.
I'm throwing
out the things I used to know.
I hate to admit it but I guess I'm not better
alone.
I love the way they did the verses because it feels so
conversational and like how you would like talk
to your friend or like your
inner dialogue of like well, like it's happening.
Like what can you do?
Like
letting go of all of that like feeling
of like you shouldn't be in love, you
shouldn't go for this, like you're better you
should be alone, like you
need this time to like be by yourself.
And I think it was like throwing those
things out and realizing that like it's
okay to be with somebody.
It's okay.
It's not going to kill you.
On a train back to Boston and we're
jumping the gun and I'm telling you baby
this the part I love but I like it when you nice.
Like
it when you nice to me.
>> We immediately when we like started hanging
out, it felt like we had been
friends for such a long time, which I
think was like the basis of everything.
Like we were just truly like friends.
And so I think it like took me
off guard cuz I had never been in
a relationship
or like had anything with someone where it
felt so like we were just like
buddies, but also like, you know, I wanted
to like make out with him.
>> >> So it was this weird thing where I was like, I don't know what's happening.
I
feel like the whole song is just this
push and pull of like should I shouldn't
I?
And so I feel like in the chorus it's like, well, this is the part where I
would normally like run away from this, but
I'm just going to say it's fine
because I think you're like actually one of the good ones.
I don't know where
it's going, but don't want to go back in.
Usually I'd leave right at the
thought of that, but I like it when you nice.
Like it when you nice to me.
>> We're conditioned to like be into people who like aren't into us.
You know what I
mean?
Like when you're on the playground when you're like so little, it's like
the mean guy is the one that like has a crush on you.
The one that's being mean
to you.
Bullying you during recess or whatever.
I don't know.
For me and like
this specific relationship, it was like I had
never experienced like all of the
ways that he was like such a good guy and just treated me so well.
And so I
was just like I had never felt this.
And I think that everyone should feel that,
you know?
Everyone should be treated well and treated like top priority.
>> Waking up by your side.
I see it when the morning hits your eyes.
You don't want me to leave.
Never
knew how it be.
It's a long for the ride.
>> Honestly, it was a funny story because
when this guy and I started hanging out,
I got locked out of the house that I was staying in one night.
And so I had to
sleep at his.
Like I got fully locked out.
Like he came out of the car and was
like trying to open the door with the
key that was like under the mat and
we
could not get in.
Like it was impossible.
So I went to his, but it was
like a platonic It was a chill sleepover.
I was like, I don't know you
that well.
Like we had only been hanging out for a week.
I was like, this is an
accident.
Like this wasn't supposed to happen.
And both of us were saying we
were like, this feels so natural and like weird.
Like it feels like we've
done this a hundred times and like we
barely knew each other at this point.
And so it was this weird thing where
like the next morning, like normally
when you I feel like wake up at
a guy's house, you're like, get me the
out
of here.
>> >> Or just like, oh my god,
I'm so focused on like how I look
right now and like
what.
But I feel like it was weird.
Like I woke up and I just felt like he like
wanted me to like stay.
Like it was this weird thing where I was like, uh, like
why do I kind of want to stay too?
I don't know what's happening.
So it was
just I think that's really like what that verse is.
It's like realizing that
you're just like down for this situation that
you never thought you'd be down
for.
>> Last month, you were just another someone.
But now we're heading back to
where you come from.
>> It was just like this weird thing
of like we don't know each other, but
we
know each other so well.
Like I think that was the metaphor of like going back
to where you come from.
And like on the train back to Boston, it's like it's
more just about like I'm fully buying into
like whatever this is and I'm like
so unfamiliar with that feeling and like that narrative.
So that's really what it
was.
It was just like I don't know you and I didn't know you like literally a
week ago, but now all of a sudden
I'm like so into you and can't imagine
like
a time where we didn't know each other.
My perspective on music has changed so much from this song.
I think I think way
less when I'm writing now and I just go with like my gut.
Whereas before, I
think I was trying so hard to like
make a specific type of song or going
with a
concept or, you know what I mean?
But I think with this one, it was just so like
free-flowing that now I just am like surrendering
to the whatever it is.
