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100 tell you they got 100 girls, 100 million dollars, 100 guns.
But then like, bro, all right.
Okay, cool.
That sound cool.
But let me tell you about what it feel like to be
in a room and you really just like
overly in your head and you just really
want to mellow out and just get through it.
Pressure.
My man Reggie, he was like, man, I recorded you a lot of times.
You You do
a whole lot in a day and then you kind of forget about stuff.
He's like, I need
you to let this one marinate.
That junk just stuck with me.
Marinate.
Let it
marinate.
Came back a week later.
I remember I'm in the sauna at LA
Fitness.
And just listen to him like, hmm.
Some heat.
Drowning in in sorrow.
Back on that bottle.
I'm not alone.
Yeah, Blanco Deseo.
Drowning in sorrow.
Back on that bottle.
I'm not alone.
Yeah, Blanco Deseo.
A lot of people that got vices, they feel alone.
They got vices because they
feel alone.
You see me around people all the time.
I'm present.
I'm enjoying
whatever.
But like there's an emptiness.
I'm trying to tell the listener this like,
yo, like I'm genuinely alone at
some moments.
But like I'm not alone cuz I got Blanco Deseo.
People get the cook
wrong, too.
They say Blanco Reposado.
They say all types of is
Blanco Deseo.
Deseo is not a real I studied a lot of the song writers.
Like,
you know what I'm saying?
Like making up like funky just like just make it just
go.
It gives you more feeling and more replay.
You would have heard it if I
said Blanco Reposado.
Trying to ease my mind.
I'm going to free my mind.
Got a threesome with these demons.
I'mma need some time.
The threesome is myself,
clear tequila, and Reposado.
They they they're the they're the two vices.
I'm trying to get
through this event.
Like I just did BET Awards.
I got like blitzed.
As soon as I got in the car,
it was like in my mind I'm like
this is not normal.
I need a shot to like fix this
cuz I'm like really I'm like really trying
to
address her about it.
It's just it's like I'm like this is why I make Blanco.
Go easy up.
She go easy down.
And if get too messy, might got to kick you out.
Yeah.
Can't figure this
out.
She made me numb.
She made me smile.
She made me talk more.
She made me loud.
She know I'm a miserable She know I hate a crowd.
Like I'm notorious for not
smiling for real.
Like I just I'm not I It's not that I don't want to smile.
It's just that I don't I feel awkward smiling.
That's just how we grew up.
If I'm loosening up and I got
I got one or two with me, I might be more prone to do it do so.
You take a
little, you talk.
You can actually get me to talk too much.
I'mma be loud.
Here
we go.
Back again.
Got enough to go around so tell all your friends.
Soon as the club over, put them
all in bands.
Will I remember this tomorrow?
Well, it all depends.
Now we going back to the
days of like club hosting and a lot of girls in this promo.
I don't know y'all.
I don't really There ain't going to be no connect.
There's not going to be
nothing.
But we can all have a good time.
But I'm turning on the person that
I believe that I'm expected to be for
the club promoter, the women that's
around that see me on TV or whatever.
I'm trying to I want to be this person.
I don't want to let them down.
Will I remember this tomorrow?
I don't bet.
But I know you know what I'm saying?
Like I got
through it.
I woke up in the four in the
morning, went to bed at the four in
the morning,
in the club for an hour or something.
I was up for like 48 hours from the
capital back to my huddle.
Hangover and back to Rodale.
Making sure that my
circle is tight.
So nobody I know got an angle.
Circle don't got no angle.
>> Circle Circle is tight, so nobody I know got an angle.
It's almost an acceptance.
I know everybody got an angle here, and
I don't judge y'all because this is
where y'all This is city of for you.
But I don't want to participate.
I've been through that that backstabbing
too much.
I'll be drinking whatever this is.
Water brown cuz I got to be gold in
my beautiful house.
No friends.
Me and my way with my cuz I'm ego.
My mama
don't ever say hi.
She say, "Why are you single?" I say, "Mommy, I'm sorry.
I'm
trying." Nobody going to love me like she do.
And nobody going to love me like
she do.
And nobody be loving like we do.
The pressure of being the first millionaire in your bloodline and I'm married.
I could do 60,000
people rolling loud.
Yeah.
So, what are What are you doing with your life?
Like it's like okay.
Pressure, paranoia, family pressure, industry pressure, pressure to be who they want me to be.
So Mommy, I'm sorry.
I'm trying.
But nobody going to love me like she do.
I'd rather be drunk and know than be
dumb and trying to be
Never mind.
That's probably my ego.
Whatever you can think of in that bar and a half.
Let me dumb and trying to be
shallow.
Stupid.
Foolish.
Gullible.
Overly confident.
Too sad.
Too broken down.
Whatever that thought was, it's probably my ego.
I have a very very unorthodox style right now.
In this particular
moment or for the past like year or
two, I'll get a driver to drive me
around and
I'll just just think just listen to anything to try to spark something.
I
don't have a bunch of writers and stuff
around, so I just got to wait for
it to
come.
Sometimes it take 3 hours, sometimes it take 4 hours, sometimes it take 20 minutes.
